It's my time

high School is over and now it' s my time.
It's my time to start my life, it's time to make my own decisions
I know what I want to be, but do I know how to get there?
It's my time to figure that out.

It's my time to take the unexpected turns of whatever life brings
it's time to realize that not everything has a direct answer
it's time to let experience teach me lessons

Stepping out of my comfort zone is the only choice
from here on out.
finding hope in the unknown is all I have left
but finding joy in the ride is all I need

bittersweet is the only way to describe my state of being
at this time
but adventurous is the perfect way to describe what lies ahead
whatever that may be.

It's my time.

Ernest Hemingway

In College Prep 2, we are reading a novel by the famous Ernest Hemingway, and this inspired me.

I love to write and I usually only write poetry or short narratives, because I don't think i'm capable of even attempting to write a novel. Now you're probably thinking "well yeah you're inspired by Hemingway's wrting,and now you want to try it for yourself!" but you're wrong. I'm not inspired by Hemingway's writing whatsoever. It was when Mrs. Heinlein proceeded to tell us about Hemingway's background that the inspiration hit me...

I dont have to be some college graduate who major's in english literature to write a novel. I can just try. It doesnt have to be completely perfect at first, no one has to read it at first. I can just try, I will never know what is in me if I'm not experimenting with my talents. How will my gifts aspire if I let them lie dormant inside myself?

so that is what I'm going to do, I'm going to do my best to write a novel, Im only going to take it one page at a time. I hope to find what's hiding in my imagination. I hope to not give up or forget about my little goal, and I hope to become a better writer in light of my "self" challenge.

When do the answers come...

I was watching HGTV, which not an uncommon thing for me,

and for some reason in my spiratic train of thought, I started to think
about how one day, i'm going to be a mother.

One day i'm going to be someones hero, for at least a little bit, and I dont even have to try.

I'm going to be the blanket of safety for someone who doesnt even know me yet.

I'm going to be the answer to all lifes problems, and know everything there is to know in the world.

I have to be responsible for someone else one day and do everything in my power to raise them the way my mother raised me.

How?

How am I going to be able to look after a whole other being, and teach them about life when i'm still learning myself?

all I know is...i'm scared.

A Little Past Due

It's winter that gets me down,

It's the snowflakes that continue to fall

It's the solid gray sky that never breaks

Where is the sun?

Where is the blue ocean that painted our world before?

the Utopia of flip flops and bare arms

It's the winter that gets me down

It's the bitter cold brushing my nose

It's the lack of hope for summer

Where is the sun?

Where is the blissful careless days?

The beach is my only priority

It's the winter that gets me down.

Commencement

It's a time that everyone over thinks right. Well now it's my turn to overthing what lies ahead.

I'm leaving.

My classmates,my home, my friends, my teachers, my town, my comfort.

It's all going away from me, it's becoming apart of my past. Right now I feel ready to move on, I'm ready to step out of all of it and find new beginnings,meet new faces,walk busy streets the whole experience is waiting for me.

I know once it gets here, I won't be ready to leave, I won't want new faces, new streets, new beginnings are scary and unanticipated.

Everyone that made me who I am will be just sitting back and watching how far I go. It's like when you're a little girl and you try something for the first time, all your family gathers and waits for you to see if you succeed. But what we sometimes forget is they stay and watch until you succeed and when you stumble and fall along the way, they are still watching so they can catch you and get you back on your feet telling you "It's okay, just don't give up and try again."

Growing up isn't fun or easy, but it's necessary.

Right now, I have my ups and downs about the future, and the truth is I'm happy to move on, but I'm sad that all of my friends cannot be there with me. They are all moving on too.

This chapter of my life is ending and all I can do is take every moment with me in the book of my life.

Introduction

My name is Sade Brown

I love Batman, Will Smith, and Coffee

I dont want to feel like im filling out my "About me " on facebook or myspace so I'm going to go a little deeper about myself.

I feel like I'm stuck in a rut, like me going to high school serves no purpose and I'm wasting my time. But not in the way most of you are thinking by this time. You see I already know what I want to do in my life, which to some is good, but for me it's almost worse. I want to get out of here and stop wasting my time learning things that don't pertain to anything I will be doing in life. Don't get me wrong, I love my high school class, it's amazing and we are all very close but the thing is....I'm impatient. (trying to work on that)

I love to write, and not going to lie I was inspired to start a blog after watching Julie & Julia, which may be lame I know but to be honest I dont care.

I would love to hear from other bloggers, even if you hate my blog....leave me a comment about it .



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